The Lost Pilgrimage Poems
        
            a book of poetry by Joseph D. Milosch
        
            front and back photography by Brandon Cesmat
        
            Published by Poetic Matrix Press
            95 pages, price $15.00
            ISBN 0-9714003-8-5
        
            Available from Amazon.com
        
     
    
    
        Description
        The Book
    
        "The poems of The Lost Pilgrimage are by a man who notices what happens.
        How rare that kind of listening is. Whether writing about his father, the war in
        Vietnam, his wife, childhood, work, fishing, faith, illness, silence, or anything
        else, Joe Milosch hammers dross away and leaves nothing extra. What's left is a
        hard-won gift and blessing for the reader willing to open this book, enter these
        poems and join the journey."
        —John Fox, CPT author of Poetic Medicine: The Healing Art of Poem-making
    
        Joe Milosch
    
        Joe Milosch graduated in 1995 with his MFA from San Diego State University. He has
        published poetry and essays in various magazines over the past ten years. His first
        chapbook, On the Wing, was published by Barnes and Noble as a regional
        publication; his second chapbook Father of Boards and Woodwinds, was published
        by the Inevitable Press for the Launa Poets Series. He was a finalist in the Tennessee
        Middle State Chapbook contest in 1996 for his chapbook, If I Could Imagine.
        He won the 1997 Tennessee Middle State Chapbook contest with his chapbook Among
            Men. In 1999 the Laguna Poets Series published his fourth chapbook Now She
                Bends Away on Inevitable Press.
    
    
        His poem "Among Men" was nominated for the Pushcart XXIII, and his poem "Letters
        from Paul" was nominated for the Pushcart XXII. He received an honorable mention
        for his poetry in The Chapel Jazz Poetry Contest in the spring of 1999. He received
        an Excellence in Literature award from Mira Costa College.
    
    
        He teaches English Composition, Literature, and Creative Writing at National University
        in San Diego.
    
        From The Lost Pilgrimage Poems:
    
        
            | 
                Now She Will Bend Away
             | 
            
                Wood Bone Blood 
                for Steven Hawk
             | 
        
        
            
                Timor mortis conturbat me (William Dunbar)* 
                 
                Now she will bend away to lift 
                and shake her skirt. She holds it up 
                in morning light as if 
                she looks for holes 
                a moth might leave or threads 
                loosened by the movement of her hips. 
                 
                As bees come to the bottle bush 
                her song springs in the summer air. 
                As buzzing breaks my thoughts of death, 
                she sings a whispered tune 
                and shakes her skirt again 
                as if it were an offering to 
                the solstice sun. 
                 
                Removing window glaze, I pause 
                to watch her hanging clothes and rub 
                my thumb across my putty knife. 
                I work as if I have no fear 
                I'll leave this world without my dreams, 
                which seem as rustic 
                as the clothes lines bent with weight. 
                 
                I want to dream that when I die I will 
                recall her name. She might be bidding me 
                a mock farewell, standing alone among 
                the lemon shadows of the grass and trees. 
                I know that corn is cob and stalk, 
                and from the mountain's melting ice 
                come flashing fish. 
                 
                She bends away to lift and snap a pillow slip. 
                 
                * Timor mortis conturbat me (The fear of death confounds me)
             | 
            
                Dragging my palm along the table's edge. 
                I slide my hand against the grain. 
                 
                A sliver breaks beneath my skin. 
                "What have you learned from your mistake?" 
                 
                Look at the damage you've done by 
                moving before you think," 
                Dad points out a crack 
                wide as a sunfish bone. 
                 
                "Never go against the grain," he says, 
                taking a needle from the cloth 
                he'd stapled to his bench. 
                 
                He strikes a match, begins to tell 
                about the buck he found three days dead 
                with its lower jaw shot off. 
                 
                I want to shut my eyes and hide my fear, 
                but my eyes are held in the tender gaze 
                of his finger's shadow. 
                 
                I watch him heat the needles' point, "Don't jerk," 
                he says before he pricks my hand. 
                The trick is trusting his touch. 
                 
                Focused on my hand, he talks 
                of that starved deer, 
                its tongue touching the grass. 
                 
                He says, "If you wound an animal, 
                track it, find it, 
                put it out of its misery." 
                 
                Finding the sliver's tip, he pulls it. 
                I bleed. He says, "Lick it, 
                a little pain never hurts." 
                 
                Replacing his needle, he returns 
                to his work, his shadow 
                sliding across the table. 
                 
                The scratch of sandpaper 
                bears witness to the even grain. 
                A bead of my blood grows.
             | 
        
    
    « Back to Press Titles